Yesterday I tweeted (twote?) that the background theme of my life is misery and I meant it. And no, I wasn’t being dramatic.
My life would be a really good artsy movie about a heroine who struggles to find happiness but opens the door to find despair whenever she thinks she’s finally at the right place.
But if there’s one thing this protagonist knows how to do, it’s pick herself up and keep moving because hope is the thing with feathers and she’d fly high on it. And if at the end of my life I look back and see that I didn’t get everything I wanted, I’ll smile because at least, I lived, I loved, and I danced.
Over the past few months, music has been what I turned to when I couldn’t find the light or couldn’t find the right words to translate my pain. So in honour of all the many breakdowns I’ve had, I made a playlist of songs that take me through the journey.
These aren’t just songs, they represent everything I feel, everything I’ve felt, they are the tour guides of my existence, they are my Kharon. So I leave you with a part of me “Sadness Hurts But So Do My Fists”. I hope it helps you like it helps me.
